Sometimes I think if I could get paid to just sit
at a desk & waste time online I’d be all set.
Whenever I’ve been unemployed in the past
I’ve tried to convince myself that
I’d eventually get bored/depressed
if I never had to work again
but I never really believe it.
I try to convince myself that this realization
is troubling & indicates a serious
lack of motivation/purpose but I just end up
being impressed/reassured by how self-aware I am.